...........

"They say that if you love someone you should let them go, but they never say what to do when they don’t come back."

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

"I wish you could look at me and see the person you once loved instead of the person you have grown to hate."

"Love is the hardest drug to quit, but it is even harder when it is taken away."

"If I could control my heart, I would stop it from falling in love with you."

"If a tear fell from my eyes each time I thought of you, I would have a puddle of fallen wishes."


"Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself."

"True love never dies as we see in our eyes, only when we let go that we can truly say goodbye."

"Aku mentari tapi tak menghangatkanmu, aku pelangi tak memberi warna di hidupmu
aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu, aku lah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan"

Need fresh air

Lame dah rasenye x pergi bercuti...bile tgk flight tiket x penahnyeee nak murah....xkan nak duduk mengadap sokmo kadang tu date plak xsesuai. Kalau pegi sorang lame dah aku on tarikh bile2 pun, tp nak kumpul tarikh availability org2 lain ni susah lerr skit kan.

Lagipun jauh mane sangat lerr aku leh pegi sorang2 ni. Balik muadzam pun kalu sorang2 tu Allah je tau ape aku rase...mcm2 huhuhu. Walaupun 30hb Ogos telah diisytiharkan cuti paksa oleh MMU, xtau nak ckp hepi ke tak, sbbnye maybe balik sorang kot. Aduiii nape lerrr lemah beno jantung ni, nak ke mane2 kena ade teman ker?? Ade mase need to be alone, ade mase rase nak angkut 1 opis bersama2 hahaha.

Feeling that chasing my own shadow, thinking a lot things when got very scary day-mare, around 7.00am mcm tu huhuhu, what exactly the sign that want me to think about?

Jiwe sungguh la kacau, walaupun tahun ni dpt membanyakkan amalan terawih more than tahun2 lepas. Harapnye aku leh sustain smpi la ke hujung Ramadhan.

Pengalaman Puasa selepas 26thn

Bertolak daripada Cyberjaya pukul 5.30ptg, boleh plak x teringat yang jln from UPM ke Kajang tu jammed time gini. Tapi dah sbb lupe tu redah je laaaaa......sampai area PLUS highway pun mcm tu gak dgn hujan lebat lg, dgn eksiden b2b dlm 7-8 buah kete lori, dgn cermin pecah tgh2 jln...huhuhu sangat menduga keimanan.

Pukul 7.30 still on the highway, so buke laaa dgn kurma n seteguk air....adik2 plak dah disuruh mkn dulu.....then after masuk tol Senawang cari stesen minyak yang nmpk di mata utk brenti solat dan time aku lak mkn....mase mkn tu mcm nak nangis pun ade, sbb 1st time buke puasa secara ala kadar mcm tu. Makan dlm kete dgn adik2ku huhuhu....

Pastu teruskan perjalanan dgn dlm 2 jam lg nak smpi umah. Dengan mata yang agak2 kuyu tu, terpakse gak lerr teruskan perjalanan sambil karok dlm kete, kalu tidak harus aku terlelap mase driving kot. Ade gak 2-3  kali terkatup mateku sib baik still leh control kalu tak rasenye x berjaya sampai ke rumah dgn selamat.....

Smpikan aku baru perasan nape org angkat lampu, sedar2 aku x off lampu tinggi tu, hahaha.....kire skali aku khayal lupe nak tutup, ade tu lupe nak bukak walaupun jalan tu gelap huhuhu.....sib baik laaaa kete tak berapa byk sgt so leh laaaa bawa around 80-90 jerk.....

Syukur laaaa aku masih bernafas sehingga hari ini.

...... Part 2

If you have it [love],
you don't need to have anything else.
If you don't have it,
it doesn't matter much what else you do have.
- Sir James M. Barrie -


We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive,
where every sense is heightened,
and every emotion is magnified.
Our everyday reality is shattered
and we are flung into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon,
but that doesn't diminish its value,
because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.
- From the movie "The Mirror Has Two Faces" -
(starring Barbara Streisand)


You know you are in love
when you see the world in her eyes,
and her eyes everywhere in the world.
- David Levesque -


A Friend's Love says:
" If you ever need anything,
I'll be there."
True Love says:
" You'll never need anything;
I'll be there."
- Jimi Hollemans -

If I Could Turn Back Time

If I could turn back time 

If I could find a way 

I'd take back those words that hurt you and you'd stay

I don't know why I did the things 
I did I don't know why I said the things I said 

Pride's like a knife it can cut deep inside 

Words are like weapons they wound sometimes.

I didn't really mean to hurt you 

I didn't wanna see you go

I know I made you cry, but baby

If I could turn back time

If I could find a way 

I'd take back those words that hurt you 

And you'd stay 

If I could reach the stars 

I'd give them all to you 

Then you'd love me, love me 

Like you used to do

My world was shattered I was torn apart 

Like someone took a knife and drove it deep in my heart 

You walked out that door I swore that I didn't care 

But I lost everything darling then and there

Too strong to tell you I was sorry 

Too proud to tell you I was wrong 

I know that I was blind

If I could find a way

I'd take back those words that hurt you

If I could reach the stars

I'd give them all to you

Then you'd love me 

Like you used to do

p/s : 

Being bless to life with people thats love and care about me everyday, and it is doesn't matter if I didn't get someone that I love and care so much coz I have to believe that him is not meant to me. However, just follow where the wind will take me to.....

Emosi Pagi Jumaat

Syukur Alhamdulillah 

1. Nyaris2 kehilangan telefon disebabkan kecuaian yang berada di tahap kronik. Sampaikan kunci bilik pun leh patah dlm tombolnye tu. Abis segala planning untuk mlm tu tergendala. Petunjuk untuk tidak menipu @ tak perlu teruskan planning itu?

2. Oleh kerana telah bernazar jika telefon dijumpai, maka dgn redha telah menderma darah buat kali pertama. Penghujung pengalaman sgt mengerikan smpi lengan lebam disebabkan oleh rodokan jarum nurse yg mcm xsuke Geng Sukun bagi support. Tapi pasni akan terus menderma jika ada kesempatan. Insya Allah. Thanks to all yang bagi support dan tips yang berguna @ tak berguna hahaha.

3. Gonna missing each of the moment being with him, cant imagine what will happen after the period end. Praying for his best and happiness. And I'll get my own happiness too.

...........

How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had? 

Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine? 

Why is it I miss someone I was never really with? 

And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?

I can't talk to you anymore, 

it's not that I am mad at you, 

it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you 

and when I realize how much I love you, 

I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy,

I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, 

I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me 

I’m going to smile

I would like to stay a secret, 

like walking in the dark, 

if no one knows you, 

no one cares 

and no one breaks your heart 

Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, 

but when you see him smile 

you suddenly realize 

you're just pretending you're over him 

to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours 

A great love?
It's when you shed tears for him but still you care for him
It's when he ignored you but you still long for him
It's when he starts loving another, and yet you manage a smile 
and find the courage to say "I'm happy for you."

Exhausted but relief & release

Skang ni dah masuk bulan Ogos dan musim ni laaaa kebiasaan konvokesyen akan diadakan. Macam2 ragam dan permintaan perlu dipatuhi untuk memastikan semuanya berjalan dgn lancar. As for this year, I dont have my Sr. TA sbb dah dipindahkan ke unit lain so, with a little experiences and help from my strongest team as I always called 'Badang MMU'. Seminggu menjelang konvo memang perlu bekerja smpi lewat mlm. Tdo xcukup, bangun seawal jam 5.30 pagi dan bebanan kerja yang sangat berat. 

Mase konvo ni gak lerrr mcm2 org nak tunjuk diorg ade keje dan kepentingan. Macam2 event sibuk nak buat walaupun tak pernah pikir apakah kesan kepada pekerja2 yang bekerja bagai nak mati tp at the end cume ucapan terima kasih.

And for the 1st time after 3 years involved in convo preparation, I'd have to standby for Alumni event too...giving the graduates from alumni members flower and greeting card. Walaupun ade yang terlepas queue tp bile tgk macam2 reaksi muke tu buat kitorng rase puas dan hepi. Ye laaa mane taknye, dlm beribu2 graduan tu cume ade 600 org je akan dpt bunge sebaik sahaja dpt scroll di atas pentas tu. Siap ade yg ngaku alumni walaupun name xde dlm list.

Tahun pertama buat mcm ni mmg agak kelam kabut skit tp Insya Allah, thn akan datang lebih sistematik dan have to make sure that xde sorang pun alumni members yang terlepas queue.

And on the second day of the convo day, I'd receive a bouquet of flowers and a bear. Its such a surprise mmg x jangka pun akan dpt lagi tahun ni....secara tak langsung kurang la skit rase penat dan tekanan yang mmg biasanye akan timbul at the highest degree on convo day. Orang lain dpt degree belajar tp aku dpt degree tekanan. 

Mase ni gak lerrr berat badan kompom naik mendadak, will had supper at 12am or 2am, makan McD lak tu, eskrim leh habis 2 bekas huhuhu....xpe2 pasni pose, sure akan turun 5 kilo hahaha....

Anyway, thanksss so much, and luv the surprise too....