Why is my blog so depressing?

Because everyday,

I get up and pretend
I'm okay and that nothing is wrong

I do this so I don't 'seek attention'

So that no one knows how I really feel.

I'm too scared to say it.
So I hide behind a smile, its my mask.

I tell that I'm tired but in fact I'm depressed.

I'm slowly giving up.

Sometimes I wonder if I will be ever be happy with myself. 

I worry that if I cant be happy with myself, 

then nobody will ever be happy with me 

and that just made me more paranoid. 

It's a cycle, insecurity, in confidence and diffidence, 

its all a cycle and it's destroying me.

I'm really miss those memories almost 7 months back
Feeling the same sign again and again

Why does it always rain on me?

Depression is not a sign of weakness,
it mean you have been strong for far too long.