Why is my blog so depressing?

Because everyday,

I get up and pretend
I'm okay and that nothing is wrong

I do this so I don't 'seek attention'

So that no one knows how I really feel.

I'm too scared to say it.
So I hide behind a smile, its my mask.

I tell that I'm tired but in fact I'm depressed.

I'm slowly giving up.

Sometimes I wonder if I will be ever be happy with myself. 

I worry that if I cant be happy with myself, 

then nobody will ever be happy with me 

and that just made me more paranoid. 

It's a cycle, insecurity, in confidence and diffidence, 

its all a cycle and it's destroying me.

I'm really miss those memories almost 7 months back
Feeling the same sign again and again

Why does it always rain on me?

Depression is not a sign of weakness,
it mean you have been strong for far too long.

24 Things Single People are Tired of Hearing

1. “How are you still single? You’re so great."

2. “It’ll happen when you least expect it.”

3. “Don’t you ever get lonely?”

4. “Aren’t you worried you won’t be able to have kids?”

5. “Are you seeing anyone?”

6. “You should try online dating. My friend met their husband/wife that way.”

7. “They don’t deserve you.”

8. “You are such a catch.”

9. “Don’t worry, you’ll find someone someday.”

10. “He’s just not ready for a serious commitment yet.”

11. “One day when you’re married, you’ll wish you were single.”

12. “There are plenty of fish in the sea.”

13. “You’re just too picky.”

14. “Just don’t turn into some crazy cat lady.”

15. “She probably just lost your number.”

16. At a wedding: “You better get out there, they’re doing the bouquet toss.”

17. “You’re just too busy right now.”

18. “You have to love yourself before you can love someone else.”

19. In reference to your best friend: “Have you guys ever thought of dating?”

20. “I can’t wait to meet your future spouse, they are going to be amazing.”

21. “We’ll all be laughing about this someday.”

22. “You should let me set you up, I know the perfect person for you.”

23. “Don’t give up, it’ll happen.”

24. “You don’t need anyone.” DAMN RIGHT!

source : http://www.buzzfeed.com/ashleyperez/24-things-single-people-are-tired-of-hearing

Road to KASTEL 2013 - Part 1

Ehheeyyyy...jumpe lagi

Mesti readers dah bosan asik bace madah berhelah jerk kan...skali skale layan perasaan 

Tuan tanah pun bosan gak laaaa

Ok laaa for latest activity, Alhamdulillah tahun ni berpeluang lagi untuk wakil Selangor dalam sukan KASTEL...

Kali ni training ulang alik ke Banting plak...3x seminggu, mcm bese laa baju kasut, suit sume dapat.

Smlm last training dgn team mate sebelum nak pegi jelajah Ganu plok...

Dan mase training last tu laaaa, team mate suh aku pki getah jerawat...tau laaa skang ni muke aku tgh byk jerawat bleh plak die suh aku pakai ari last training huhuhu...

Kot ade laaa yg belum tau or x penah tgk camne getah jerawat tu kan...ni haaaaa rupenyeee

 source : google

Haaaaaa byk kan jerawat??penuh 1 papan tu, tapi xde la guna dua2 belah jerawat ni, utk forehand guna yg biasa, jerawat ni guna utk backhand jerkk... Getah biasa tu harga dlm RM140, yang jerawat ni dlm RM40 jerk tp kalu tuan tanah kompom wakil Selangor tiap2 thn of kos la dah melabur byk utk ini tapi buat mase ni mcm xde harapan tinggi.

So far ok laaaa tapi nak kena praktis lebih skit lagi sbb baru nak familiar...hrp2 leh beraksi sebaik mungkin kat sane nnt. Kalau tak silap grup dgn Kelantan dan Melaka...target kontigen ke semi final...makcik nebessss

And harap dpt jumpa BFF tuan tanah mase skolah dulu2....rindu die sgt2 ehhh lame doh dok jupe

to be continueddddd.....

Redha

source:- google

Thoughtful Tuesday

source : google

Terribly Tuesday

Jaga hati org tapi hati sendiri yang sakit.

Tolong orang buat keje tp keje sendiri ke laut dalam.

Nak tolong kawan tapi ada yang rasa terancam plak.

Nak senangkan keje org tapi keje aku kena hentam abis2...

Dengan bekalan sabar yang tak berapa kuat dan banyak tapi redha je laaaa..selagi hati dan badan boleh terima, selagi masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas, cube utk pikir secara positif.

I am SAD..

 

Spend your time on those that love you unconditionally. 

Don't waste it on those that only love you when the conditions are right for them.

Learn to be alone and like it. 

There is nothing from freeing and empowering than learning to like your own company.

 

20052013

Still stuck with my other life, sampai tak sempat nak update2 my own story.

Tapi nasib baik ade kawan yang rajin tulis blog...so uols semua baca je laaaa ape yang die tulis yerr...

Thanks for being our photog, pesanan kepada En. Korie, pasni amik gambo dr tepi je tau sbb aku rase gemuk la sangat2...kuikuikui

Anyway, lure this picture a lot with your daughter, Amani Izara...

source : http://koriekitchen.blogspot.com/2013/05/recipe-mee-curry-vs-virgin-mojito.html

Thanks for the food & your hospitality, nant aku dtg lg sebab dah tau rumahnyerr...hahaha

How Can I Learn to Trust Men Again?

Entry kali ni maybe boleh jadik panas kepada sesetengah org, kalau rase terlebih sensitif atau terlebih emosi, silakan 'menghalau' diri sendiri untuk bace posting ni yerrkkk... Kerjasama dan perhatian anda amatlah tuan tanah hargai.

 

Once a man has scorned you, you may find that it is hard to trust anyone again especially another man. This can be live changing experience and you may need help trying to figure out what you can do to get over this relationship and what has happened to you. There are so many reasons why a woman can loose trust in her partner and it may be hard to get those feelings of trust back. In fact, for some women and relationships, the trust is lost forever. 

Haaaa lelaki kat luar sane, kalau nak lukakan hati seorang perempuan, ready laa untuk dikurangkan kepercayaan kepada kamu yerkk...hihihi

Mari kite tgk sbb ape jadi macam tu?

Why do men lie?
1. There are some men that do nothing but lie all the time and then there are men that never tell an untruth about anything. It will depend the personality of the man and how they grew up.

2. Sometimes how a person was raised can be the determining factor about how a man acts when he is an adult. If they are raised around men that lie all the time and are not very respectful to women, they may grow up to be the same way. This is not something that is necessarily going to happen, but it can be a cause.

3. There are many men that lie because they are ashamed of whom they are. They may not tell a woman the truth because they are not excited about anything in their life. They may feel ashamed of who they are and what they do for living or even where they come from. Sometimes a man will lie to make they look better in the eyes of a woman. Little do they know that this will only make a women less attracted to them because of the lies they tell?

4. Another reason why men lie is to cheat. There are so many relationships ruined because a man has cheated. Once a man cheats on a woman, the woman will have a hard time ever really trusting the man again. They may find it difficult to maintain a good relationship with anyone ever again. This can be a devastating blow to any woman that has low self-esteem already.

How to tell when a man is lying
1. Some women can tell just by the way the man is acting. Some men cannot look them in the eye, get nervous and act suspicious, and may even stutter or fumble their words. However there are some men that can lay so well that no one will ever be able to tell.

2. It is important for women to try and recognize the signs of a man lying to her so that they can tell when they are being fooled or not. This is something that will take a little bit of knowledge and a lot of patience. If a woman is being lied to, they should not stand for it. They need to take control of their own life and remove themselves from this type of unnatural relationship.

What can I do to rebuild the bond and trust?

Many women will not give up on the man that she loves. She may find that this is the person that they want to spend the rest of their life with. When this happens, they will try and do anything they can to make the relationship a success again.

For some of these relationships it is possible to do. However there are some that will never be repaired. Sometimes a woman can just tell when there is no hope for their relationship and they will have to learn to accept the fact that their man is a liar and there is no hope.

However for some, there is hope and this is a long and difficult process.

There may be time when a woman just wants to give up and leave the situation, but then she realizes that she wants to try a build the bond again. When this is the case, there needs to be a lot of communication. For some couples, counseling is necessary to get the relationship back on track.

It is important to talk the situation out and lay down ground rules.

This is a very important step that has to be taken so that the couple can figure out where they stand in the relationship. Laying down ground rules is important to. This is where the woman needs to feel like she is in control and that she has all the cards in her hand. If a man is serious about being with you, they will do whatever is necessary to gain your trust again.

Should you trust someone with a history of infidelity?
If you are thinking about having, a relationship with someone that has be unfaithful before, you may have a tough road ahead of you. This will be something that will take a little bit of time and work. You will want to be a little leery in the beginning. You do not want to go too fast in case the man tries to repeat history. You can trust someone until they give you reason not too, however you need to be cautious so that you are not putting yourself in a vulnerable position.

Can you change a man? Is it possible for them to not lie again?

For some men, you can change the way they behave. You can do your very best to make them see what a good thing they have with you and that any little mess up can take it all away. You will want to make them understand that you are in control and that you are making the rules. They will have to follow them and change their lying and cheating ways or the relationship will have no merit.

Men can change and there is no reason to give up on them right away. If you think the relationship is worth saving, you can take the appropriate steps to make sure that you are both happy without the risk of ever having to deal with this problem again.

p/s : Lelaki yang baik utk perempuan yang baik, so kalau asik jumpe yg x berapa baik tu means diri sendiri lum baik lagi laaa kan...insya allah akan cuba istiqomah dan perbaiki diri untuk menanti seseorang yang terbaik untuk diri ini.

source ; google, articlebase

Strictly Soulmates

Dedicated to all my friends yang single & available like meeee....hihihi

Beberapa kisah pencarian of soul mates.  Ape2 pun  masing2 ade pendapat sendiri. Enjoy this video...

Kejap lagi I'm going to hadap jem ke PJ for today, I think I'm starting to hate Iskandar Educity project huhuhu

 

source : youtube

Cyberjaya Corporate Games

Bace tajuk pun macam grand btul event ni...dan team netball mcm bese, last minit register dan lack of training...hurmmm gasak laaaa..seb baik bayo x mahal sgt rm3 je sorang, selain netball ade lg games lain tp ni je laa yg mampu nak masuk... tempat pun dekat jln kaki pun smpi jugak hihihi

Plus minus seminggu je nak tergolek, melompat bagai...so pray for our best k!!...Harap2 xde jadik lauk sardin laaaa.. Insya allah

Lagipun weekend ni baru jerk tgk final netball antara Malaysia & Tanzania, so strategi kena well plan dan perlu byk plan A, B, C .... dan ade beberapa muke baru so nak kena bond to each other lagi kasik chemistry ade..

Jemput ramai2 cyberjaya community dtg pas keje sapot kami yerkk...games 18-20 Dis jam 6-10pm

See u there!!!

more info at CCG

Kifarah...

Syukur alhamdulillah, di sebalik dugaan dan cabaran yang Allah bagi, die balas dgn berita gembira.

Walaupun bukan utk diri sendiri tapi ditempiaskan kepada orang2 yang rapat dgn aku...alhamdulillah.

Mule2 terpk sendiri, nape Allah bagi mcm2 dugaan pada kecik je, nasib baik ade kawan yang igtkan, biar kifarahnye dtg sebelum kita dijemput menjadi tetamu istimewaNya, supaya jika ada peluang nnt, kita dpt beribadat dan sucikan diri dgn lebih baik. Insya Allah, semoga Dia permudahkan segalanya.

Kifarah adalah balasan Allah di dunia akibat dosa yang dilakukan oleh seorang hambanya, juga ujian-ujian Allah itu boleh berlaku, yang mungkin melibatkan kematian orang yang dikasihi, kehilangan harta benda ataupun penyakit, tidak kira sama ada penyakit tersebut berlaku dalam tempoh masa yang lama ataupun sekejap bergantung kepada ketentuan (qada’) Ilahi atau buat selama-lamanya sehingga mati. Selagi ketentuan (qada’) bagi sakit itu belum menepati qada’ Allah, maka sakit (kifarah) tadi tidak akan sembuh biarpun pelbagai usaha dilakukan oleh manusia jelas di.sini membuktikan bahawa ada di antara penyakit itu akan sembuh dengan sendiri biarpun tanpa usaha manusia untuk mendapatkan kesembuhan ataupun tidak akan sembuh biarpun banyak usaha untuk menyembuhkannya telah dilakukan.  cont reading 

Syukur jugak, sbb aku dikelilingi dgn org2 yg sudi membantu jika dah terdesak sgt (semua jasa2 kalian aku dpt balas dgn doa, kalau ade rezeki lebih leh buat kenduri kesyukuran)...besenye mmg mcm tu la pun, selagi boleh setel sendiri akan cube sehabis baik laaaa, tapi kalau dah melebihi kemampuan diri sendiri, perlu serahkan pada yg pakar, xmo la plak nnt jadi bodoh sombong...huhuhu

source : www.budiey.com

Debaran kian terasa.....

Mane tak debarnyeee...bajet pro player then brani nak masuk ini tournament ---- USIM Netball

Pengalaman dan skill masih putik jagung tapi ape leh buat, dikelilingi oleh kawan2 yang minat bersukan, dan suke nak mencabar diri sendiri. Akhirnyaaa, dapat menghantar 1 team ke USIM...

Jadinye, weekend ni berkampunglahhh di USIM, semoga tak jd lauk sardin laaaa...walaupun training dlm sebulan je, asal ade game baru turun training, mmg hebat btulll...lagi2 plak skang ni asik ujan je, training plak outdoor court yang tak memenuhi spesifikasi antarabangsa, mau laaaa pancit dibuatnye kalau masuk court betul.

Nak dijadikan debaran ni lagi best bile ade jugak kategori lelaki, xpernah tgk secara live camne diorng main, adakah lelaki adik2 or gagah perkasa, tapi kalau main lagi teror dr kami mmg laaaa tergugat rasenyeee..anyway, will be update bile smpi masanyeee nnt.

Mase mude2 pucuk pisang tu, posisi wajib aku WD, C plak kadang2, WA plak jarang2....bile dah tua mcm buluh  ni, aku punye posisi wajib C, sunat WA haiiiyyyyoooo mmg mencabar stamina.

Anyway, hidup aku skang sgt full dgn aktiviti ptg dan malam, so sbb tu weekend rest aje, tapi kalau ade panggilan cemas utk turun ke gelanggang akan ku bergegas ke sane jugak...

 Posisi paling glemer tapi aku x sukeee sbb semua kawasan boleh masuk kecuali D, masak haku

 Posisi aku paling sukeeeee...sbb boleh kuarkan bolaaaa jgn smpi ke kawasan D lawan hahaha...

Posisi ni aku xsuke sbb kena carik ruang utk amik bola dr tengah kawasan....kalu xdpt lari dr pihak lawan kompom bola xsmpi kat gol aku

 Alhamdulillah atas nikmat yang Allah berikan selama ini.

1st class : Table tennis coaching

Yesszaaaa...mase mule2 dengar pun bikin penasaran jerk. Tapi nawaitu nak improve diri utk kasi gilap ini tgn menggesek, meng'chop' dan meng'spin' itu bola sangat la tinggi, nasib ade kawan2 yang seangkatan nak ikut same, kalau tak mmg lagi haru laaaa...

Planning dr thn lepas, tapi bese laaa komitmen sukan lain byk sgt, mane taknyeee org tu laaa main futsal, org tu laaa main badminton, org tu laaaa main netball dan nak kejar court yg cume leh gune certain2 hari jerk (nasib aku laaa, mase study dulu xmo gune puas2), nak wat camne kegunaan khas utk student.

Setelah macam dugaan akhirnyaaaa, kelas pertama berjaya jugak dijalankan, dan setiap hari Rabu jam 5.30-7.30 ptg kena stick on that routine. Lagipun ape2 changes akan diberitahu melalui sms, sbbnye coach ni pun ade personal class kat luar jugak, so kadang tu maybe die ade hal ke ape, xperlu la turun or main sparring je laaa...

Mmmg cuak laaaa, sbb former Malaysia player kan (Ms Chong Choi Ting), diorg pun cakap coach garang slalu kena marah, tapi dgn beginner die tak hush sgt la kot, so far so good laaaa tp tang die stat ckp mandarin dgn budak2 tu mmg haru lerrr...

So kami ni diberi latihan basic giler2, die nak tgk cara kite pukul sume, pegang mcm mane, forehand, backhand, stroke & smash...so farrr ok laaa lagi, sbb kite always ready bola yg die nak bagi, no spin or chop kan...its ok slowly la kann...TM pun lum wat lg tournament utk pemilihan ke kastel hihihi...aimed so high la sgttt (tapi kalau dapat syukur la sgt2, already miss my team dgn lawak2 merapu diorng tu).

Alhamdulillah 1st class going well, then we will see after 3rd class sbb die akan review & bgtau bayaran sebenar, hopefully not more than RM50.

p/s : class hari pertama x brani nak amik gambo takut coach dah aimed awal2...so kite respect as is it, kalau sempat snap baru upload yeeee...hihih

To all MBA (Malayan Blues Army)

Each of us yang sokong the Blues mesti skang ni tgh berdukacita, kecewa, marah, macam2 perasaan bile Pengurus yang boleh dikatakan banyak bagi sumbangan pada the Blues. Sape lagi kalau bukan Robbie Di Matteo.

Nak kate aku ni peminat bola tegar tu xde la jugak, tak penah pegi stadium pun, tgk games kat tv pun ikut mood laaa jugak. Tapi dah sebabkan bile berkumpul adik bradik kat rumah, secara tak langsung asik bukak espn or sembang2 pun ckp psl the Blues, so aku pun dah terjerat same...

Mane diorg nak layan kalau aku ajak borak psl masak2 ke, baju2 ke...huhuhu nasib badan lerr.

Alasan paling kukuh xmau terlalu fanatik sbb aku ni mudah sgt meradang kalau ade perang emosi drp kelab penyokong lain..so baik aku wat bodo jerk..kalu tak nnt parah jadinyeee kuikuikui

Dan kalau tak silap the Blues dah dpt pun pengurus baru iaitu Rafa Benitez, ye ke tak??muehehehe kalu silap jgn mara arrr...so far aku x kenal sgt la cara keje mamat ni (ceh mcm laaa aku tau hal2 bola sedunia) tapi xpe laaa kite tgk je camne...kalau si Matteo tu 6 bulan, yang ni kena buang gak laaa kalu xcapai target dlm mase tu kan? Kata nak fair play so kena fair gak lerr management..

Anyway, I will be missing Matteo, xdpt nak tgk kelibat die pki suit kat tepi pdg tu haaaa....

 Kata-kata terakhir beliau (mungkin aku bleh copy paste, bile smpi mase aku tinggalkan MMU ni) :-

"Walaupun saya dipecat,tapi saya tak simpan apa2 perasaan tak puas hati terhadap Chelsea. Yang ada hanyalah rasa sayang yang mendalam terhadap The Blues. Menjadi penghormatan apabila dilantik menjadi manager untuk kelab yang saya

cinta sebagai pemain dan sentiasa dekat di hati saya. Saya tersangat bangga atas kejayaan dan piala2 yang kita mampu bawak ke Stamford Bridge dalam beberapa bulan kebelakangan ni."
" Membawa Chelsea menjulang trofi Champions League yang pertama,di Munich merupakan pencapaian terbaik untuk kelab dan juga untuk saya, sama ada sebagai pemain atau manager. Ia merupakan kenangan yang saya akan ingat sepanjang hidup saya. Saya ada perasaan yang mendalam dan tidak berbelah bahagi terhadap Chelsea Football Club dan saya ingin berterima kasih terhadap semua staff, pemain2 dan juga semua peminat2 yang sentiasa memberikan sokongan yang jitu sepanjang saya menjadi manager untuk Chelsea."

 All the best to you toooo...

KASTEL 2012 in memories

Pengalaman kali pertama dalam hidup....mungkin ade hikmah di sebaliknya

Sebelum2 ni tak pernah terpilih mewakili Selangor sebab aku mmg tak terror pun main ape2 sukan. Insya Allah semua sukan boleh main cume pro atau amatur je laaa

Its all happen bile ade kawan call & tny if aku bleh tak wakil TM Selangor utk main pingpong ke KASTEL (Karnival Sukan Telekom)....main2 tu bleh la kan tapi nak harap menang mmg impossible lagipun mase xsmpi sebulan, mase tu plak bulan puasa pas raya laaa baru bleh turun training.

And the most thing that make me sangat2 nervous sbb team ni cume nak sorang jerk pompuan....huuuuu mmg lagi la menggigil, ditambah dgn aku x kenal sorang pun drp diorg tu.

Tapi for the sake of membe mintak tolong sebab dah xde org lain dah, so aku pun beranikan laa cakap YA...

Then concern pasal kena turun training kat TM Bukit Raja, dah laaa aku baru 1st time pegi sane....ini plak twice a week kena travel ke sane after work untuk training, sorang diriiiii!!!!...

Duit tol pegi balik RM10++, dgn minyak lagi, kena time off lagi....really make me wanna sick and nyesal plak ckp ye. Bile 1st time pegi training rase mcm nak nangis sbb kena perli oleh sorang teammate sbb tak perform bagus. Rase xmo dtg dah pastu, nak gugurkan nama sendiri jerk tp fikirkan janji yang dah dibuat aku terpakse laaa gagahkan diri jugak.

This year KASTEL buat kat Melaka...urrmmm the boring one sbb beria sgt dgn sambutan 750 sejarah melakanyeeee...smpikan aku rase byk bw baju kurung dr baju sukan...zaman dahulu kala sume siap kena bawa kain batik..mmg sgt2 boring walaupun acara tu lain dr lain, and kdg2 aku jadik GPS gak utk diorg

Tapi mase study dulu mane laaa jln sgt, so igt2 lupe je laaaa...

Oleh sbb pengalaman pegi training x berapa bagus, aku ckp laaa kat diri sendiri ini adalah 1st and last aku pegi...mmg xde la pasni tp bile dah pegi cam seronok plak, mmg keje xyah nak pikir, seb baik x byk call masuk mmg enjoy sakan kat sane...

Dan teammate plak mcm lain btul mase start tournament tu, mmg giler2 supportive and encouraging each other. Lagipun kami ni ade mcm2 lapisan umur dan pengalaman, dr 20-an, 30-an, 40-an smpi laaa 50-an...

Pangkat abang dan ayah jerk sume2 tu...perangai pun macam2...

And roomate plak dapat dgn orang yg kite dah kenal so senang laaa nak kawtim...

Syukur sangat2...mule2 jerk jalan penuh liku tapi sampai masenye alhamdulillah dipermudahkan. Cume penat menunggu lelaki2 nak bersiap, kadang tu terjah sesuke ati, seb baik aku bukan jenis yg bermekap2 ni kalu tak mmg kena tinggal la dgn diorng.

Time kasih kat penaja kasut dan pakaian sukan kami, siap dgn stokin....toceeyyyy

From the left : Ain (car mate a.k.a driver mase di Melaka), En. Din (coach paling cool di dunia, like a father), En Saiful (1st teammate aku kenal, serve die sgt2 mengelirukan), Naim (car mate a.k.a partner lwn dgn KL), Emi (20-an mate kami berdua jerk), En. Talib (otaiiii, garang mase training tp kat Melaka asik gelak jerk) & En. Mazni (partner mase lawan Jhr, tipu aku psl serve pecah dua) and last but not least tukang amik gambo ni En. Raziri our manager.

Ape2 pun nak mohon ampun maaf kalau ade yang terbaca dan terasa @ ade sedara mara... xde niat nak burukkan orang lain cume nak kenang balik memori istimewa ni.

Semoga tahun depan ade kesempatan lagi nak berada dalam ini team. Kalau masih berada di MMU or TM laaa kan...dan jika dipilih sbb org lagi teror xde...Dengarnya thn dpn lum dpt dipastikan negeri yg akan jd tuan rumah sbb tunggu keputusan pilihan raya...

Share & Care

Terbaca nukilan seorang teman mase belajar di MMU, apa yang dirasa sama seperti yang aku rasa, tp die mempunyai pengalama yang lebih perit dari aku...sesungguhnya moga Allah merahmati hidup kami.

2 Ramadhan yg bahagia... :-)

Alhamdulillah..hari ni dah 2 hari umat Islam di Malaysia berpuasa. Kerana Ramadhan dah bermula, saya pun dah start memasang target untuk Ramadhan ni. Target apa? No no bukan target untuk diet & sebagainya.. Tapi target utk menjadi hamba-Nya yang lebih baik dari sebelum2 ni, insyaAllah.. ^_^

Saya masih dalam proses refleksi diri. Dan saya masih dlm proses belajar. :-) Belajar tentang kekuatan diri, belajar tentang hal-hal ketuhanan, hal-hal kekeluargaan, senang cakap tentang hidup sebenarnya.. Yerp, sekarang ni saya suka sangat buat observation. Hehehhe... Bukan skodeng yer, tapi belajar dengan melihat kehidupan orang lain. Walaupun kehidupan setiap org tak sama, tapi selalunya sy akan dpt conclusion yg sama. If you want something, you have to sacrifice something. Ahaks!~ Fitrah alam kan? ;-)

Bahagia tu subjektif. Tiap2 orang lain definisi bahagianya. Cuma apa yg saya nak cakap kat sini, buat masa ni, saya bahagia hidup single. Ahaks!~ Saja jer nak org semua tahu sbb saya tau ramai jer yg concern ngan saya ni.. Tapi percayalah, buat masa ni saya memang tak ready utk jadi isteri mahupun ibu lagi. Saya tak ready utk sacrifice apa2 yg saya ada sekarang ni. InsyaAllah satu hari nanti, saya yakin Dia akan pertemukan saya dengan jodoh saya bila masa yang sesuai tiba. Only when the right time comes.. :-)

Sebelum ditakdirkan saya berumahtangga, saya dah nekad nak baiki diri dahulu. Banyak sgt kelemahan saya yg belum lagi saya atasi. Sebab tu saya rasa salah satu punca saya masih belum dipertemukan jodoh.. ^_^ Kerana saya mahukan jodoh yg terbaik, saya kena jadi yang terbaik dahulu. Jadi, bulan Ramadhan ni adalah turning point utk saya. Please pray for me. I want to become a better servant for Him. :-)

Indeed, time will heal everything... And yes, I'm not yet fully healed though 1 year has passed..

But don't worry, I AM moving forwards.. Cautiously~ :-)

~ Rindu dgn view ini dari tingkat 2 Masjidil-Haram ~

p/s : bagi pendapat aku, kalau kite dah jumpe mr Right at any point of time, for sure hari kite pun automatic akan jadi ready untuk melangkah ke alam seterusnyaaa..

 

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Full blast November

 Updated Laaaggiiii

Syukur Alhamdulillah kerana sepanjang hujung minggu bulan November ini hari-hari ku terisi dengan aktiviti yang dpt membuka mata dan minda ke arah yang lebih positif bersama keluarga, rakan sekerja, dan rakan2....

to be continued...

1st weekend - spend the long holiday with my lovely family (5 days)

2nd weekend - walkathon with my lovely friend

3rd weekend - brainstorm with OPS executives

4th weekend - attend my lovely friends' wedding @ Kuantan

For December, Selangor will have 2 days holiday for Monday (12th & 26th) .....hurmmm will be long weekend need to find something that dont make me feel boring for just staying at home do nothing.....

1st weekend - tunggu sedia (UC MAS event)

2nd weekend - photo shoot

3rd weekend - null

4th weekend - null

Any event that need volunteersss or part time job please contact me...hehehe

It doesnt show that I'm desperate but I have to make my life full of happiness and meaningful because I'm not sure how long I will can see this amazing world again.

Swimming class

Lets have a story about my swimming classes :-

1st class (early Nov) 

1. Diajar bagaimana cara btul nak masuk ke kolam.....

2. Bubble dlm air

3. Mengapungkan diri

4. Mendarat dlm air

5. Superman style

6. Kicking

7. Superman + Kicking + Kuak tgn

2nd class (Thaipusam Day)

Buat balik macam klas mule2 sbb dah lame tinggal

3rd class (23 Jan 2011)

Mcm biasa laaaa buat sume yg basic2 tu ditambah dgn water treading pada paras ketinggian 1.8m

As for the conclusion, aku still takut nak berenang ke tgh2 tu asik duk kat tepi tebing jer sbbnye kalu rase nak lemas tu kire leh la trus paut kat dinding wakaka....

Rasenye dlm sebaldi gak kot air kolam tu aku telan dan sedut.....hahaha....

Anyway, pas berendam tu rase ringan jerk badan tp xrase la plak kurusnyeee....walaupun aktiviti masuk air tp..gambo2 kenangan tak akan ditinggalkan hehehe....

Semoga baki 7 sesi klas akan menjadikan aku sebagai seorang perenang wakil mmu plak...Aminnnnn.....

Just about You!

Thanks a lot for being so nice and helpful. Even though we knew each other just for a few months, but the appreciation and trustworthy that you had given to me was such a beautiful feeling. 

I realized what ever you done to me all this while, cannot be compare as what I'd treated you as you should get.

But I hope that you can understand my limitations. Your friendship was unconditional, no offense and hoping it have sincerity too. I cant pay back what ever you have done to me since we get close. Your always done the best for me, no body will act like what u had.

Hoping that you life will full by the happiness. Thanks for the care and attention. thanks for everything. Forgive me for anything that I done that might heart you.